“You prayed that God would help you be a good mom and you’re not being a good mom right now!!!” My daughter’s words. They cut deep and echoed in my head for the rest of the day. She wasn’t wrong and she wasn’t lying. Having Autism makes her the opposite of a liar. She tells… Continue reading Choosing Weakness, One “Mom Fail” At A Time
This isn’t what I imagined our marriage would look like. I knew going in that every marriage goes through difficult times. I didn’t walk down the isle with some fairytale idea in my head. But this…this is the opposite of what I expected. I knew you were the one God had planned for me to… Continue reading To The One By My Side
It brought me to tears, even the thought of asking. I already knew the answer. But I felt like I had to say it out loud…I had to try… Sitting in the dark on my bed, my hands were shaking. My heart was pounding so hard that it hurt to breathe. My chest was tight,… Continue reading Embracing Our “Not Yet”
My Sweet Babies, I want you to know that I see you. There are so many times when I have to urgently care for your sister and it takes me a while to do what you’ve asked, or to be able to sit and listen. I know it can feel like you’re invisible sometimes. I’m… Continue reading A Letter To My “Typical” Kids
She had a bad day today. Which means that we had a bad day today. We are one and the same, my daughter and I. My soul is intertwined with hers. Yet, I can find myself in the same room with her and somehow be another world away. Sometimes, in these moments, I recall Ephesians 2:10…”For… Continue reading When Love Hurts
We made cookies today. Because, well, what else are we supposed to do when it’s -12 degrees outside?! (I’m anti-winter by the way.) It always sounds, in my head, like a simple and fun idea. Because I don’t factor in the clash of personalities that happens when our kids do anything together that requires cooperation. The sharing of space… Continue reading Cookie Cutter Kids
