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Tradition Redefined

His 2nd birthday party came and went. It was nothing like I’d imagined or secretly hoped for. There was no singing of “Happy Birthday”. Being surrounded and focused on by a group of people scares him and, to have them all start singing at him…there would only be tears. The candles scared him too, and… Continue reading Tradition Redefined

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Chosen By Grace

I got myself a gift this Mother’s Day: A Tattoo. If you’d asked me a few years ago if I’d ever get a tattoo, I’d tell you not in a million years. I just didn’t view myself as “the type”, whatever that means. Things changed. I changed. I’ve been deep in the trenches for as long… Continue reading Chosen By Grace

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What They Don’t Tell You When Your Child Is Diagnosed With Autism

You know what the experts don’t tell you when they diagnose your child with Autism??? They don’t tell you that you may find yourself in a room with your child when she has a meltdown, trying to protect yourself as she hits and kicks you, while you simultaneously try to comfort her as she frantically screams, “I don’t… Continue reading What They Don’t Tell You When Your Child Is Diagnosed With Autism

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Sweet Sacrifice

Just when I think I’m starting to get ahead of this feeling, it comes back again. I’m an angry mom. I don’t even always know why except that, if I’m being honest, I’ve let selfishness take over. There’s a screaming toddler at my feet, another in time-out, sticky floors and endless piles of laundry, a… Continue reading Sweet Sacrifice

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Sweetly Broken: The Cost Of Faith

Much of life at this moment is hanging in the balance. The future has always been uncertain, but now the only thing I’m certain of is that I have no control and no idea what’s to come. God has called me out onto the waves…and a storm is approaching. During a recent meeting, as I discussed… Continue reading Sweetly Broken: The Cost Of Faith

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When “I Love You” Hurts

In my daughter’s eight years of life, she’s only ever said the words “I Love You” as a recited response. Having Autism makes it hard for her to connect with us emotionally in the ways we’re used to. She loves us in her own special way…a certain look in her eyes, the ways she’ll touch… Continue reading When “I Love You” Hurts

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My Gifts: A Confession

In our home, we’re in the middle of a very draining, painful season on the special needs parenting journey. This season, I’m told, will come to an end. When the end will come is unpredictable. What is predictable is that, though this difficult season will lead to a less difficult season, the cycle will only… Continue reading My Gifts: A Confession

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The Weight Of Motherhood: What I Know

Today, I felt as though I was suffocating under the weight of motherhood. Being a mother to special needs children carries with it an even greater sense of heaviness at times. To even say something like that makes me feel terrible. After all, I love my children with a deep, fierce, whole-heart kind of love…but… Continue reading The Weight Of Motherhood: What I Know

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“What are you thinking, God?!”

Yesterday, I sat in another doctor’s office…another one of my children, another painful diagnosis. I felt the doubt creep in. Aching for my child, my heart whispered, “What are you thinking, God?!” My mama instincts longed to fix things for my girl. I’m sick and tired of watching my children suffer. Then, a wise friend… Continue reading “What are you thinking, God?!”

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Surrender In The Storm

In the midst of my hardest and most painful parenting moments, I always felt that I HAD to keep going. That I had no choice but to push through. That’s what I’d always been told, anyway. Yet, I’m learning that, when parenting brings you to your knees, stay there! DON’T get up. At least not right… Continue reading Surrender In The Storm