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Deeper Joy: When The Holidays Hurt

I’ve spent the last several weeks trying to think of something to write as we approached Thanksgiving. I have a lot to be thankful for. We all do. Yet, the holiday itself is typically the time when I’m feeling the least thankful. The holidays for me, like many others, hurt. No matter how hard I try to… Continue reading Deeper Joy: When The Holidays Hurt

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The DIY Mom

I am a recovering “Do-It-Yourself Mom”. Not to be confused with the “Crafty-Made-From-Scratch-Hand-Sewn-Pinterest-Inspired Mom”. I’m talking about the kind of mom who has a To Do list several miles long but never asks for help. The kind of mom who runs around like a crazy person from sunup to sundown working her butt off, but never… Continue reading The DIY Mom

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It Starts With Us

When she was younger, you thought it was cute. The way she jumped up and down excitedly and repeated everything I said. Her big green eyes and sweet, round angel face were the first things you’d notice when she entered the room. Her meltdowns were, in your mind, toddler tantrums and you gave me that… Continue reading It Starts With Us

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To My Son, Before They Label You

My Son, The doctors tell me that you have Autism. That, though you’re not quite old enough for them to make an “official diagnosis”, all of the signs are there. Soon, the world will label you. Many will see you through the lens of disability. Life will change. Before it does, I wanted to write to you. To tell… Continue reading To My Son, Before They Label You

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To Everyone Who Calls Me Strong

I feel like a fraud. I’ll gladly tell you why because, first of all, this feeling is icky and I want it gone. (Honesty always makes me feel better.) Second, because I’m willing to bet that I’m not the only one… Two of my four kiddos now have Autism. Two of them had Autism a month ago as well,… Continue reading To Everyone Who Calls Me Strong

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Why I Grieve Over My Children With Autism, And Why I Refuse To Hide It

Last week, I relived the experience of walking into a doctor’s office and being told that my child is on The Autism Spectrum. Our oldest was diagnosed at age two and now our youngest has begun the road to a diagnosis at age fourteen months. The experience is similar in a lot of ways to the… Continue reading Why I Grieve Over My Children With Autism, And Why I Refuse To Hide It

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When The Fear Becomes Reality

The Fear had been just beneath the surface, breathing down my neck ever since the day the ultrasound technician told me that my fourth child would be a boy. I had three little girls at home, one with Autism…and boys are at an even greater risk. The thought remained in the back of my mind from… Continue reading When The Fear Becomes Reality

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Coming Home

Dear Daughter, Today, I watched you play your first baseball game. I cried. A lot of moms cry over things like that but, for me, the reason was very different. The world has been whispering in my ear since the day you were diagnosed with Autism, “She’ll never be able to…”. I promised myself I wouldn’t believe… Continue reading Coming Home