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The Weight Of Motherhood: What I Know

Today, I felt as though I was suffocating under the weight of motherhood. Being a mother to special needs children carries with it an even greater sense of heaviness at times. To even say something like that makes me feel terrible. After all, I love my children with a deep, fierce, whole-heart kind of love…but… Continue reading The Weight Of Motherhood: What I Know

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“What are you thinking, God?!”

Yesterday, I sat in another doctor’s office…another one of my children, another painful diagnosis. I felt the doubt creep in. Aching for my child, my heart whispered, “What are you thinking, God?!” My mama instincts longed to fix things for my girl. I’m sick and tired of watching my children suffer. Then, a wise friend… Continue reading “What are you thinking, God?!”

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Surrender In The Storm

In the midst of my hardest and most painful parenting moments, I always felt that I HAD to keep going. That I had no choice but to push through. That’s what I’d always been told, anyway. Yet, I’m learning that, when parenting brings you to your knees, stay there! DON’T get up. At least not right… Continue reading Surrender In The Storm

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A (Different) Dream Come True

It happened three days ago. The moment was so surreal that I still haven’t really processed it except through tears of joy. I had lots of hope, but there was still that place in the back of my mind that acknowledged the possibility that it may never happen. When your child is diagnosed with Autism, you just… Continue reading A (Different) Dream Come True

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Deeper Joy: When The Holidays Hurt

I’ve spent the last several weeks trying to think of something to write as we approached Thanksgiving. I have a lot to be thankful for. We all do. Yet, the holiday itself is typically the time when I’m feeling the least thankful. The holidays for me, like many others, hurt. No matter how hard I try to… Continue reading Deeper Joy: When The Holidays Hurt

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Burned-Out: The Dark Side Of Parenting A Child With Autism

Today left me broken. I’m still trying to pick up the pieces. She was having such a good day. This morning, she ate breakfast at the table with her sisters. (She rarely ever sits still that long.) She did her homeschool work alongside her siblings as if it were just like any other day. (She always… Continue reading Burned-Out: The Dark Side Of Parenting A Child With Autism

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The DIY Mom

I am a recovering “Do-It-Yourself Mom”. Not to be confused with the “Crafty-Made-From-Scratch-Hand-Sewn-Pinterest-Inspired Mom”. I’m talking about the kind of mom who has a To Do list several miles long but never asks for help. The kind of mom who runs around like a crazy person from sunup to sundown working her butt off, but never… Continue reading The DIY Mom

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To My Son, Before They Label You

My Son, The doctors tell me that you have Autism. That, though you’re not quite old enough for them to make an “official diagnosis”, all of the signs are there. Soon, the world will label you. Many will see you through the lens of disability. Life will change. Before it does, I wanted to write to you. To tell… Continue reading To My Son, Before They Label You

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To Everyone Who Calls Me Strong

I feel like a fraud. I’ll gladly tell you why because, first of all, this feeling is icky and I want it gone. (Honesty always makes me feel better.) Second, because I’m willing to bet that I’m not the only one… Two of my four kiddos now have Autism. Two of them had Autism a month ago as well,… Continue reading To Everyone Who Calls Me Strong

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When The Fear Becomes Reality

The Fear had been just beneath the surface, breathing down my neck ever since the day the ultrasound technician told me that my fourth child would be a boy. I had three little girls at home, one with Autism…and boys are at an even greater risk. The thought remained in the back of my mind from… Continue reading When The Fear Becomes Reality