I’m not sure where to begin. Especially when the end is still so far from view. From the outside looking in, I “had it all”… Husband, kids, big house, cool car, and a growing ministry. That’s the thing about the outside- it’s only a fragment of reality. People who know me well know that I’m… Continue reading The Death Of Me
I haven’t written a thing since April. Honestly, it’s not that I couldn’t; I just wasn’t willing. Not because I don’t love to write or feel the call to minister in this way, but because I’d lost my passion for almost everything. I found myself in one of the deepest valleys of my life. Each… Continue reading Held.
It takes me down every time, no matter how many times I go through it. I just can’t seem to protect myself from the wave of pain that it carries. Autism’s heavy weight is briefly lifted. At first, I stay guarded. I know better than to celebrate too soon. I play it smart. That’s what… Continue reading My Anchor and My Hope
The day is done. One more day. One more nightmare unfolding, slows down in the quiet of night. I sit here on the floor and let my tears do the talking- “Here I am, God. Where are You?” The chaos builds around us. What was once a constant rumble in the background of our lives,… Continue reading Storm In The Valley
For a few months now, I’ve been struggling with challenges I didn’t prepare myself very well for. I’ve shared a little here in the past about my visits to Haiti and how, up until last Spring, I had always thought that my being a stay-at-home, homeschooling mom was the plan; the only plan for my life.… Continue reading Live Love…Whether They Like It Or Not
I returned from a mission trip to an orphanage in Haiti a couple months ago on a spiritual high. I was eager to share all that God was doing, not just at the orphanage, but in my heart. His grace had brought me on the incredible journey of short terms missions work, where all the… Continue reading Why Motherhood Counts
Why am I always flooding your news feed with Autism Awareness or Anti-Bullying posts? Why be so annoying as to constantly talk about my children’s Special Needs, when your typically developing children obviously have needs as well? Because of THIS… This is the last text message I got from my husband. Messages like this, conversations… Continue reading Access To My Text Messages: The Reality Of A Special Needs Parent
I’ve had two county meetings and two diagnostic assessments to get through in the last week and a half, in the midst of both of my children with Autism being in a deep valley of negative behavior, social limitations and sensory struggles. There’s been more time spent navigating screaming meltdowns in the past two months… Continue reading Being Real: Accepting Help In The Trenches of Special Needs Parenting
I returned from Haiti four days ago. I’d made the journey to GVCM Orphanage with a list of children tucked in my backpack. Out of over 100 children who live there, these are the kids with known stories of abuse and trauma in their pasts and/or special needs of some kind. My primary goal during… Continue reading Haiti Missions Update: Restoration Begins
“Amy, you’ve been living in trauma for so many years that it’s reprogrammed your body. You likely can’t overcome this without medication.” …I cried in the doctor’s office. I don’t cry in front of people I barely know. That’s not how I operate. But there was something about this situation that made me feel completely… Continue reading When Getting Help Feels Like Giving Up
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