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Joyfully Uncomfortable: A Leap Of Faith

There aren’t many parts of my life, emotionally speaking, that are comfortable. Parenting children with Autism has transformed my world into a place that somehow contains both all-encompassing, rigid schedules and constant, unpredictable flashes of chaos all at the same time. I recently scheduled a visit with my doctor, thinking there had to be something major physically wrong with… Continue reading Joyfully Uncomfortable: A Leap Of Faith

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When “I Love You” Hurts

In my daughter’s eight years of life, she’s only ever said the words “I Love You” as a recited response. Having Autism makes it hard for her to connect with us emotionally in the ways we’re used to. She loves us in her own special way…a certain look in her eyes, the ways she’ll touch… Continue reading When “I Love You” Hurts

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My Gifts: A Confession

In our home, we’re in the middle of a very draining, painful season on the special needs parenting journey. This season, I’m told, will come to an end. When the end will come is unpredictable. What is predictable is that, though this difficult season will lead to a less difficult season, the cycle will only… Continue reading My Gifts: A Confession

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New Year’s Day: Like The Morning Fog

I used to look at New Year’s Day as a new beginning; a fresh start. Since becoming a special needs parent, the celebration of New Year’s means nothing to me. I know that sounds harsh but, before you call me a party pooper, hear me out… Parenting a child with special needs changes your perspective… Continue reading New Year’s Day: Like The Morning Fog

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The Weight Of Motherhood: What I Know

Today, I felt as though I was suffocating under the weight of motherhood. Being a mother to special needs children carries with it an even greater sense of heaviness at times. To even say something like that makes me feel terrible. After all, I love my children with a deep, fierce, whole-heart kind of love…but… Continue reading The Weight Of Motherhood: What I Know

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“What are you thinking, God?!”

Yesterday, I sat in another doctor’s office…another one of my children, another painful diagnosis. I felt the doubt creep in. Aching for my child, my heart whispered, “What are you thinking, God?!” My mama instincts longed to fix things for my girl. I’m sick and tired of watching my children suffer. Then, a wise friend… Continue reading “What are you thinking, God?!”

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Surrender In The Storm

In the midst of my hardest and most painful parenting moments, I always felt that I HAD to keep going. That I had no choice but to push through. That’s what I’d always been told, anyway. Yet, I’m learning that, when parenting brings you to your knees, stay there! DON’T get up. At least not right… Continue reading Surrender In The Storm

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A (Different) Dream Come True

It happened three days ago. The moment was so surreal that I still haven’t really processed it except through tears of joy. I had lots of hope, but there was still that place in the back of my mind that acknowledged the possibility that it may never happen. When your child is diagnosed with Autism, you just… Continue reading A (Different) Dream Come True

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Deeper Joy: When The Holidays Hurt

I’ve spent the last several weeks trying to think of something to write as we approached Thanksgiving. I have a lot to be thankful for. We all do. Yet, the holiday itself is typically the time when I’m feeling the least thankful. The holidays for me, like many others, hurt. No matter how hard I try to… Continue reading Deeper Joy: When The Holidays Hurt

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Burned-Out: The Dark Side Of Parenting A Child With Autism

Today left me broken. I’m still trying to pick up the pieces. She was having such a good day. This morning, she ate breakfast at the table with her sisters. (She rarely ever sits still that long.) She did her homeschool work alongside her siblings as if it were just like any other day. (She always… Continue reading Burned-Out: The Dark Side Of Parenting A Child With Autism